Good Day, my fellow bloggers.
I read so many of your blogs. I laugh with you, I cry with you. I get angry when you do, I feel your pain, and your joy. But mostly, I envy you.
I envy those who can write like no one is reading. The freedom you have to say whatever the hell you want! I don't have that. My blog, the one I have been writing for just over a year, is a sugar coated tail of my daily life, the fun motherhood stories, and the hobbies and projects I take on. My family and friends all read my blog. They love being able to stay connected.
That blog, is missing a HUGE chunk of my thoughts, and feelings. In fact, I almost never write about my feelings.. unless of course they are happy ones. I wouldn't want anyone to know that I am not perfectly happy.
That is where this blog comes in.
I need to vent. I have no one to vent to.. so I am going to use you. You blog readers out there. I figure, if your not interested, you can just move on.. skim and skip posts as you wish. I won't have to edit, to make sure I don't reveal to much, or that grandma will know what I said about my mother.. husband, or friend.. Cause I will be this invisable person, sharing with you my truth. My happiness, along with my miserable-ness.
So who am I.
I am a mother of one beautiful daughter, she is 16 months, expecting another baby early next year. I have a dog, she is 4 years old. And I am married. Happliy miserable since 2006. I'll share that story another day.
I know your intuativeness has already picked up on the fact that I am not necessarily blissfully in love, gleefully married, and adore my loving husband. I am married. Sometimes I have good days.
Things were just ok, until we had our daughter. Then the real morals and values, and expectations started peeping up. We are different my husband and I. I love my daughter more than anything else in the world, and would give up everything for her. I am overjoyed and excited to have this second PLANNED baby next year. My life has done a complete flip upside down when I became a mother. I loved the change, the new role, the responsiblity. My husbands life hasn't changed at all.. except for the fact that he now has the cutest kid ever calling him Daddy...
Anyway.. enough of the introductions. Who I am and where my feelings come from is to much to explain in one post. Stick around. I'll bring in all the details one post at a time.
I know I will write things, and experiences that some of you are living, and think no one else is going through it. I hope that airing my dirty laundry here, will do two things.
First: Give me a venue to scream, shout and pour out my feelings.. both happy and sad and
Second: to let you know that you are not alone. I am secretly unhappily married too.
Just Me.
I know your intuativeness has already picked up on the fact that I am not necessarily blissfully in love, gleefully married, and adore my loving husband. I am married. Sometimes I have good days.
Things were just ok, until we had our daughter. Then the real morals and values, and expectations started peeping up. We are different my husband and I. I love my daughter more than anything else in the world, and would give up everything for her. I am overjoyed and excited to have this second PLANNED baby next year. My life has done a complete flip upside down when I became a mother. I loved the change, the new role, the responsiblity. My husbands life hasn't changed at all.. except for the fact that he now has the cutest kid ever calling him Daddy...
Anyway.. enough of the introductions. Who I am and where my feelings come from is to much to explain in one post. Stick around. I'll bring in all the details one post at a time.
I know I will write things, and experiences that some of you are living, and think no one else is going through it. I hope that airing my dirty laundry here, will do two things.
First: Give me a venue to scream, shout and pour out my feelings.. both happy and sad and
Second: to let you know that you are not alone. I am secretly unhappily married too.
Just Me.
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